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Name: Hansel
Birthday: 10/12/1983
Interests: Playing sports, eating lots of good food, watching movies with action and heart and discussing them, helping others, and still being corny
Expertise: Most things associated with Star Wars, Lord of the Rings, Final Fantasy (including the piano collections), and APPLE
Occupation: Education/training
Industry: Education/Research
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Member Since:
2/9/2003
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| So today I was again reminded of why i don't think i can stay in teaching. My 4th period, which mostly consists of students behind a year are just frustrating. I've had a number of these students 2 years ago and last year and I'm tired of their behavior. Maybe it's immaturity on my part, but I'm still holding onto ideals that somehow they can change. And I love how the more effort I put in often equates with much more resistance with a lot of these kids. I know i probably don't always do it the best way i could. But anyways, in a class where most of the people are already failing and this won't change unless something major changes it sucks when you encounter so much attitude and disrespect. Many unfortunately due to numerous circumstances really seem to be lost. I'm not sure if some of them will ever really change.
So today I was again reminded that I don't really enjoy teaching all that much. I feel a general conviction "to do what is right" and to help the students and really push them and do what I can. But I very rarely derive any satisfaction in what I've done. I know that my students generally like me and i'm sure there are a number of ways that i help them, but yeah i think i'm nearly spent and I don't think i can keep going. It's hard b/c i'm still not completely sure about medical school and what makes it even more difficult is that in some ways i'd feel "guilty" for leaving knowing how much help is needed in these schools. But we do need to be "selfish" at times and I need to really figure out what i'm going to be doing soon.
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| So I took the big fat and ugly yesterday! After a grueling 4.5 hrs and going to the bathroom during every 10 minute break and checking in and out electronically with my fingerprint it was over. I was tired, hungry and actually feeling physically sore.
The exam is curved based upon how everyone does so I'm not sure how I did. We'll see in a month. Just trying to have faith in God and redirecting focus back on stuff I've neglected and new responsibilities.
Just wanted to say thanks for all the people who've encouraged me for the past 4 months. Thanks for the calls, the texts, the reminders that i should be studying, your prayers, the texts, for snacks and for some puzzle fighter whooping that I was able to deal out the day before. (Ahem Dong, and Ahem Fergie contrary to what you say I would not have been up all night trying to beat you or crying over it you are soo going down man).
So what's up next? Applying for schools in June. Helping out with youth group. Will get my cleared teaching credential in the fall and teach a 4th year. Going to pick up the bball again. Eat and chill with people. Homeless outings and blood drives again.
But yeah, God's still shaping me a lot and there's so much to learn and experience. All I know is that a lot's going to happen these next couple years :P
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| So I found out that my research from undergrad was published. Granted I didn't fully understand EVERYTHING i did back then. However, I did spend 3.5 yrs on it, wrote a thesis and managed to successfully defend it earning honors in cell biological molecular genetics. But ANYWAYS i found the abstract on pub med a while back, and finally found the full text pdf today. It came out in the Eukaryotic Cell Journal March 2007 and i'm #2 in the credits. It's sweet cause i didn't have to write any of it!
So despite hating the research a decent bit and having negative results until the very last semester I did enough actually have the research published :P
MCATs in 2 days...
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| I've been doing a pretty poor job of being the "unofficial" spokesperson for apple, but i just have to say again that they've come out with some pretty sick stuff again. Really slick new laptop and really nice feature updates for the iphone. Going to have to eventually get these :P
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| So I have this younger cousin in Korea who is going to college soon! I remember taking care of her when she was a baby and I used to think she was the cutest thing ever! But anyways..i just found out that she got a $200,000 samsung scholarship to Princeton. :D Craziness! I know she studies really hard in Korea and yeah that's just amazing. Only if i could study like that! :P
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